Well I haven’t blogged in a while. Nor have I been very good at it.
A lot has changed since the last time I was here. I had another baby. That was amazing. So much of a better experience this time. But I’ll save that amazing story for another day.
Today I am dealing with pain. I’m not sure what’s causing it, but I have an inkling that it is endometriosis. This will be the 4th cycle since Ava was born that I have experienced pain. Usually it starts on day 2 of my period. Today is day 24 of my cycle and it is already rearing its head. The pain is awful. It is like someone is stabbing the lower half of your body over and over. Last month I took a lot of ibuprofren which helped some, but really upset my stomach. It took a week to get over my pain. It exhausts you. drains you of everything you have and when it’s over you know it will be back in a month. It’s depressing and I feel like I have no idea what to do.
I’ve called the nurse, but I know they won’t be able to see me today, and even if they can, what can they do for me? I don’t want to take hormones and I am terrified of surgery. I feel hopeless.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day….